10 O'clock madddness!?

So I chose to not keep crashing the 5-7 math class. Although it has more
perks and such, I just can't help it. It's around 5 that I turn utterly
useless. I know the 10 o'clock class with be harder BUT it always has
time to cram before it, while the 7 o'clock class is RIGHTAFTER track
practice. I'd have zero time to prepare for anything. And I need my Hail
Mary time, lol. Time to make that last sec pass to score for the team!

In other news I painted somthing I don't 100% hate lately. Happy Vi.

<3

Getting to Know Vi

My family consists of my mother, brother, bird (Greeny), father, and myself. My mom is a good woman who's childish and a bit repetitive, she'll ask you something at least twelve times the exact same way before understanding anything. It's my pet peeve to, so I get head aches often. But she's good, she more or less raised me and my brother by herself.

My brother is my "Super Cool Hero" and had been since I was a little girl. He has a great taste in fashion and music and always has had perfect skin. He can sing, play the guitar, and used to animate and draw, but then later gave it up.

My dad left us twice and I don't respect him much. especially because he visits just to use our Internet and watch our TV. I hate how he acts like he's still in charge even though he should consider himself only a guest in our house. I'm mean and sometimes I feel very guilty about it.... I try to be nice to him. I do....

My bird, Greeny, is too cute! She's the only person I can say has a "cute lil' but". I think she's mean though. She looks like she has an attitude and I always look at her to say "Don't you judge me." She's the only one who knows how bad my morning OCD can get.

So right now I live with my mom and my bird in a two bedroom apartment. My brother and I used to share a room but I usually just ended up crashing on the couch. My room is a mess! But I'm happy to have it to myself! I just need to get rid of some old things in the past that are holding me back. I hate being unable to throw things away, meaningless emotional attachments to inanimate objects are the worst.

Right now me and my mom are both going to school at different times and I have a Saturday class.... we don't see each other much then. I also gave up TV for Lent, this Catholic thing where you have to give something up to thank Jesus for dieing for us.... or something like that. I'm not really a Catholic, not hard core at least, but since my Grandmother died a while ago I feel like I need to try more. Well, I gave up TV but my mom still watches TV so now we spend even LESS time together because she won't stop watching it.

I was born in California and it owns my heart! I've lived here my whole life and have never gotten tired of it, this place is my home. I still want to travel though! I neeeeed to go to Canada to visit someone and to Japan just to bask in it's glory. I've only been to Mexico so far, and our car got stolen! Haha, I was just so P-O'd they took my sketch book! I mean, drawing is my life!

I love to read, if I had to pick a category or two for my top favorites I'd pick: tainted romance, drama, adventure, f'd up state of mind phyco fashion drama I don't have a word for it! Oh! And cute fluff. (Fluff is a mostly online term for fluffy romance so sweet it gives you a tooth ache).

I adore music, either emotional or dance. If a song makes me want to cry while I sing it's won me over. I also like Vocalod music because it's made by fans and is always fresh. The songs have great lyrics to like Romeo and Cinderella "I don't want to live my life like Juliet in a tragedy, so come and feel me darling"

"You see I’ve been longing just like Cinderella,
I’ll even run away with just my uniform.
So please let this magic stop the time, before villains try to stop us.
I'll run away just like Juliet,
But don’t call me with that bad-luck name,
Yes, we’re bound, already fit to be tied but wouldn't that be a little bit to dull?
Darling will you even marry me?"

(Rough English translation, but it's a very cute song.)

I don't read magazines anymore, TV is usually boring except for a few shows like "Modern Family" and "The Office". My favorite radio station got shut down and is only online.... but my computer won't load it. I usually read books or Manga (comics from Japan) and online comics. I love things that come straight from everyday people and I think online comics are a great way to tell a story and have it actually be seen. I have an online myself....

When not in school I'm drawing. I have a muse names Marco whom I adore and is sometimes the only reason I live. Sad to say but I can get that..."emo". Michael "Marco" FiF Hearts is a boy who looks very much like a girl and wants to be a Saint one day. He's very selfless and kind. He hates himself though and the only reason he doesn't kill himself is to help others to make up for the fact he's alive. He had a semi traumatic childhood. Poor boy. He's also my FASHION MUSE! I come up with so may outfits for him all the time! Someday I'll make one of them.

I'm also into video editing! I'm even taking a Saturday class for it outside of SMC. Someday I want to edit for a TV show.

I also love to dance and sing like a spaz. I want to act and sing on stage or in front of a camera someday but I'm too shy.


I hope someday soon I won't be so shy and will be able to look people in the eyes more often. I also want to write more comics and grow a fan base. Someday I'd like to be published.

A good story makes me happy or a good song or thought! I am very well know for randomly sqweeing with delight. Lately I'm happy just shooting ideas around on some forums. Just being able to share an idea fills me with joy. A good song and dance or a thrilling manga always cheer me up.

I don't like to get angry. I get stressed out too much though. I freak out over being late to class. I've even had nightmares about it! How pathetic! I also hate it when my laptop freezes when I neeed it. Like it's been doing all month! It dies every hour! So now I have to type all my homework in Blogger because of the auto save feature.

The current world is one big concern, but how can you teach the whole world to love again? That is.... if ever had known love.

My greatest fear is to never be heard. I have so much I want toshare with this world! It aches inside my chest and keeps me going. Someday the world will know my Saint. I'll be bigger then Evangelion! (A classic anime known for it's plot and character depth and how messed up they all are.)

I acted a bit.... just in student films. It's always fun. To be someone else for a moment and sell this emotion off, what a rush! I hope to do more acting in the future but I hate my face too much to do it!

I don't know what else to say.... I don't believe in sexual orientation, at least not for myself. I have brutal allergies that make my whole body shake with a sneeze. I sometimes twitch when it's cold and.... I don't like how some people preach religion but then don't do much to help others, that's just lame.

That's all. I think we'll get to know each other better over time if you'd like. I'm more or less an open book that no one bothers to read.

Pubic and Pit hair, why?

Okay this has been bothering me for a while.

If you follow the idea of evolution, and that the physical qualities only come up and last if there to our advantage. Why do people have body hair????

When was a guy given the upper hand in survival by having thick pits?

Yeah, I saw a hairy guy at the bus stop today.

Disturbed.

Ash Wednesday.

Happy Ash Wednesday to anyone who's Catholic or who just likes to put ash crosses on their foreheads. I had a late class today so I tried to go to church. I missed the ash. D= This was my New Years resolution to!

I'mma try to get it later today. Wish me luck! <3

Random Kick-ASS Animations

parkour motion reel from saggyarmpit on Vimeo.

Zombies

An in depth debate on how Zombies work, lifespans, diet, and film
history. =)
--vihearts

Cops are ex pot heads?

I was reading this book, a new book I got today to celebrate winter classes being over. It's a fake blog collection or something, very interesting, great for getting back into the swing of things.

Any who, in the book the girl smokes up and in one part her mom's current boyfriend jokes she's gunna' be a cop one day and BAM! I remembered this guy from high school!

Ohhhhmygosh, this guy was the biggest pot head in the school. Like Snoop Dogg status! Ha ha!

He always smelled of pot and cologne. It was actually a good smell. The thing that annoyed me about him was that he had too much money. Brand name head to toe, he was always high with food in his bag and getting by with his easy to get along with nature.

I think he was the person who noticed I had a ass that fateful day in science/biology class. Sigh the one day I didn't wear baggy clothes. But I'm learning to live with that now, annnd that's another story.

I guess I have a good body, a few people have told me so, but.... (mummble mummble) Yeah.

The guy was the biggest stoner sex addict in the world! Heh. He talked about how his sister had a stripper pole in her shower so he'd bring girls to her house sometimes.

Excuse me but I think that's kinda' ew.

His sister's a cop by the way. He wants to be a cop to.

HA FRIGGEN HA! Riiight?

Biggest pot-head man! And his sis was okay with him getting high, as long as she didn't literally see his stash. Oh and if she did it was only a small fine, HE HAD THE MONEY!

I tell you if he becomes a cop he's going to be in the top ten of most corrupt in the area. *sigh* Oh well.

-Vi <3s

(I sarted this last night like after midnight and forgot it in the morning, lol.)

Another Muse.

I can't stand my current feelings lately. I'm sitting on this idea I've had forever, well several. I've always done BL, that's boy's love, stories, but I plan to eventually do a GL. A Girl's Love.

A GIRL'S LOVE!

A FRIGGEN' GIRL'S LOVE!!!!

I'm a...method writer?

And I feel like this is the year to at least develop the characters and do a few drawings of them. That means..... I'm "lesbian" till I at least get the idea solid. Concept kills me, I mean kills me. I already have my temporary crush, my current muse who is so lively and beautiful it hurts. She's amazing! AMAZING! And-duh, I cant do a thing about it, just sit here an suffer till my feelings get so bent up I actually write or draw the stupid thing! (lol)


Now for the one or two people who might read this and for the one person who might read this and know me: No, it's no one you know, don't worry.

I'm just going to artificially be in love for a while to get the ideas flowing. But I might actually have a real small crush on her aside from that.



Heh, I just love to suffer.

Fast Doodle Sketch.

Looks much better in person. Oh well.
--vihearts

If FTD Were Human....

Sending from my phone's e-mail again, so the format will look odd.
Sorry.

This was a fast drawing that I did and attempted to ink of human Meer
and Matt. Matt kept animal like features while Meer lost hear fox ears.
I thought after the pic was already done, that mby Matt should stay the
same in the human ver (If they ever was one that is).

It's not that good of a pic, I wish I could have made it something
special, but I have a lot to do lately. I can only seem to put effort
into small pics it seems. Oh well. *sigh*

-Vi

Ugh Homework

I love to write, wait.... let me correct myself; I love to write fiction.
being used to writing being only used for self expression, I have a massive problem writing any sort of essay. I just find it draining. And so here I am at 3:30 in the morning with just an into.

I figured, If I wrote this in my blog I might actually have a fighting chance of finishing it.

Here I am working on my draft:

A mother and daughter have a bond like no other in the existence of the world. An invisible bond connects the two. Often, no matter what, a child will always love it's mother and the mother will love the child back with small glimpses of understanding. With this bond in place you may think that mother and daughter know each other so well that they'd always get along. That's not the case. That is because a child is not it's parent. A child is it's own person with it's own mind and ideas on how the world works. An individual with it's own thoughts and feelings; who grows up in it's own individual situation, entirely different from it's mothers. This individuality can often lead to misunderstandings between mother and daughter In Alice Walker's “Everyday Use” oldest daughter Dee and her mother fail to understand each other. In the story Dee comes to visit her mother and sister after having been away to college. The mother notes how flashy Dee is dressed and how Dee always did have her own taste and style, something the mother admits to not having herself. Dee decides that she wants to take a few things from home including an old quilt that her mother, aunt, and grandmother have made from old scraps. The Mother does not want Dee to have the quilt because it is already reserved as a wedding gift for her other daughter, Maggie. Besides the quilt being reserved, the mother is a bit put off because she had actually offered the quilt to Dee before who refused claiming that they were “old fashioned, out of style”(253). Both of them fail to understand where the other is coming from. Dee wants to connect with her past and heritage through material things and the mother thinks Dee is being self centred and stuck up. They are both coming from two very different points of views and have failed to understand the situation from each other's eyes. Sadly this is a situation that often comes up between mothers and daughters due to having grown up in different circumstances.

Dee's Mother knows that she does not live up to what Dee wishes she was. She refers to Dee as "The child who has made it" and sometimes dreams of being re-united with her on a TV program of sorts(248). In her dream she is "the way my daughter would want me to be" which is a hundred punds lighter with glistining hair and a witty toung that Johnny Carson would have to struggle to keep up with(248). Dee's Mother knows she is not that woman though. She is infact a hard working woman who boasts that she can do anything a man can; she can “kill and clean a hog as mercilessly as a man” with her “rough, man-working hands”(248). Allready one can tell that this mother feels that she is somewhat of a failure in her daughter's eyes and is not what the daughter would prefer as a mother.

Setting aside the physical differences, Dee and her Mother differ in many ways. Dee's Mother cannot look a white man in the eyes, talking to them "always with one foot raised in flight" and turned away from them. Dee on the other hand "would always look one in the eye. Hesitation was no part in her nature"(248). With the story being told in the Mother's point of view, one wonders if the Mother is putting herslef down, idolizing her daughter, or both? The Mother often describes Dee in a heroic sort of way, saying that she is "determined to stare down any disaster" witheyes that would not flicker(249). While Dee's Mother admits to wearing flanel night gowns and overalls, Dee is described as being stylish; "she had a style of her own: and knew what style was" at the age of 16(249). Dee also had more of an education, both formal and wordly. Dee's Mother never made it past the second grade, when her school was closed down, on the other hand, Dee herslef not only went to college, she went away for college. Dee's Mother knows more about self efficent hand crafted work and Dee is knows more about schooling and life outside her old small town.

Dee was and is materialistic. I myself do not know why specificly but I do know that it is a state of mind that's hard to shake off. Dee is stated as having wanted "nice things" and to Dee those nice things were dresses and black pumps. She even alterd a suit that belonged to her mother to fit her own tastes. dee wanted the better things in life. This isn't bad, or greedy really, it's natural. She grew up with a worn down mother and hand made things and thought she not only could do better but deserved better. She hated her situation in life enough to go change it. She hated the house she grew up in, her mother knew that but did't stop to ask or even wonder why.

Fast Tablet Portrait Sketch

I got a tablet this year for Christmas, today I took it out for a moment to practice. I like traditional art, I prefer it to digital as it has much more soul. But I know the growing value of digital media.

I at least have to be able to handle a tablet, some editors use them. I guess it makes things more fluid?

Anyway, here's my sketch:

It's not very good but it's also very good. Simple but it came out without a lot of stress and no re-working. When I think about how much I used to struggle before, I feel happy at things like this now.

-Vi