One day I fell in love with a girl. In retrospect, she wasn't as horrid as I remember, I think the indifference hurt. I failed to even become a "real" friend.
I think girls are cute or cool, attractive, or sweet....
But I find myself indifferent to genders. So I don't consider myself bi.
I consider myself asexual "also known as non sexuality....in its broadest sense, describes lack of sexual attraction....considered a lack of a sexual orientation" (wiki.)
I go to my school's G.S.A. and P.RI.D.E. clubs, but....
I feel out of place, I feel like I don't really belong in the gay community. As if my love for that one girl only allowed me a temporary pass into the GSA world. And now It's expired.
Is this strange?
Hrm.
I still believe in gay rights, I just feel out of place in those meetings and events. I just feel like I don't belong.
-Vi
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Hey I now exactly how you feel. I remember there was a pride org on campus in undergrad and i just knew I would feel out of place. i do think there is a distinction among black gay culture and white gay culture. I felt that I keep my distance and hope I found the group to surround myself around in the future. And sure enough I did. Of course by that point I had graduated and attended another school in another city which is where I currently reside. you should search online and see who or whats out there. Keep on searching and questioning what you dont understand.
ReplyDeleteDear Jamar Herrod,
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What do you feel is the difference between black and white gay culture?
At my school were very mixed up so I never considered such a difference.
We have our 1st PRIDE meeting of the season on Thursday, So I don't know how I feel on the subject yet, heh.